Why I Disappeared From Posting Blogs

So, exactly 1 month after my last blog post telling everyone about my wonderful engagement, my uncle (who was part of it) passed away of a sudden heart attack. To top it all off, it happened to be Valentine's Day so I won't ever be able to fully enjoy the most romantic day of the year ever again. He pretty much raised me and was my father so it hit me pretty hard. I still cry to this day to think about it and that's probably why it has taken me even this long to post. I'm in tears even now to say this little on the situation. As a side note, John has been absolutely amazing throughout this entire ordeal and I'm extremely happy I will be marrying him next year. Well, I hate to cut this short but I am finding it hard to type through the tears right now. I'll hopefully update in a week or so to let you know what other things have been going on in my life that aren't so solemn.

I'm Engaged!

So, John and I are officially engaged! It happened yesterday (1/13/08) and here's the story:

My uncle called me a few weeks ago to invite me down for the day so John requested it off work. Little did I know my uncle was in on the whole thing. Anyways, we have breakfast with my uncle and hang out for most of the day. As we were leaving John didn't drive to the freeway, instead he went to PCH. We ended up at a restaraunt called Captain Jacks (which is right on a canal)and he explained that he had some extra money and wanted to treat me to a nice dinner. As we were sitting there at the end of dinner, John told me that he had something else planned right after. Next thing I know we're walking out the back door to the canal where a gondola is pulling up. We get in and start our journey around the canals looking at all the beautiful houses and the stars. Under the 2nd bridge we start kissing and he pulls away and tells me he wants to break tradition for a moment and he tells me how much he loves me and then gets down on one knee and pulls out the ring and asks me to marry him. It was so romantic! Once the gondola ride is over, we leave the restaraunt and start heading down PCH. We get no more than a few blocks away and he pulls into this nice bed and breakfast. We walk up to the door (they hid the key under the mat for us so we didn't have to check in once we got there) and we walk into the room. There were candles everywhere and rose petals on the bed and some wine and fruit on the table. It was absolutely beautiful! We stayed the night there and finally made it home this morning to spread the good news.I hope you all are as excited for us as I am!

The New Job

Well, I've been at Fresh & Easy for a month now and I absolutely love it! The people I work with are all really nice and funny. We are laughing about something almost all the time. The work is kinda boring but at least I'm working. I go into the kitchen and write down how much of each product they make and then go into the computer and post each product as complete and take all the ingredients out of inventory. One day a week I have to go in at 4am and do pretty much the same thing except it's final products I'm completing (e.g. regular days I complete batches for pasta, meat, sauces, soups, dressings, dips and 4 am days I complete finished products like mac & cheese, spaghetti and meatballs, bottled dressing, salads, sandwiches and all the packing materials/containers). It still sucks working on the weekends because I don't get a full day to spend with John but the days go by so quickly that I hardly notice my work week is almost over by the time Monday rolls around.

The day I started I found out that they had actually hired another girl along with me and it's kinda funny cause her name is Brandi. We are so completely different from one another but, because we are both new, we have somewhat bonded and become friends. We go to lunch together most days and the other night we went out drinking together. She's a tattooed and pierced punk rocker and I'm a kinda shy non-punk rocker (I couldn't figure out what the opposite would be) so it's kinda odd to see the two of us together and getting closer but we'll see what happens.

That's really about it for now. I will try to update this a bit more often since I'm off on Mondays and Tuesdays and there's not much else to do on those days than waste my time online and keep you posted about my life.

4 1/2 Months Worth of Posts

I don't even know where to start. I think the last I posted I had just gotten my wisdom teeth out and welcomed a new member of our family. Let's see if I can tell you about what all has happened since without this turning into a novel.

My uncle graduated from LVN school in July so I went out to see the graduation. While there, his girlfriend offered me a job as her Administrative Assistant. After not much thought (it was a really good offer, or so I thought), I accepted the job and left Harlow's after almost 5 1/2 years of working for them. It turned out to be the job from hell. She was one of the worst people to work for and she made my life miserable. I could never please her and she was always putting me down. I would work 10 or 11 hours almost every day and it felt like I never got to see John. I was always in a bad mood after work and I was just exhausted whenever I would have any free time. At the end of September, she called me on a Sunday and told me she didn't want me to work there anymore. She gave me some stupid excuse about not wanting to tear the family apart and me needing hospital experience and continued to put me down and then she asked me to pretty much beg for my job back. I pretty much told her that I didn't want to beg for my job and I was done.

At the end of August, John and I went to Cancun. His mom and step-dad went as well as his aunt. It was so absolutely beautiful there! The water was the most beautiful blue it just went on forever. We went snorkeling, took a tour of Tulum, painted ceramics and visited happy hour often. I had a great time. Especially the day I had a few too many "Vacation Size" Margaritas. Other than the travel nightmares (I don't even want to go into those) it was a greally great time.

A few weeks ago, John and I went to Knott's Scary Farm which was somewhat fun. You can read all about that in his blog.

Last week, our kitten got spayed. She has to have a cone over her head so she doesn't lick her stitches and it's kinda funny and sad. She walks funny and runs into walls and it's difficult for her to eat but at least her stitches will be ok in the end. Two days ago we had to take her in cause her incision site didn't look right and it was all swollen but the doctor said it was because of the internal stitches irritating her and that it's nothing major. She definitely is a trooper for going through all this.

Last but not least, today I went to my first interview since losing my job and they offered me a position. It's with the grocery store Fresh & Easy. I will be working at the corporate office in Moreno Valley. I will pretty much be doing inventory control and helping them get a new system in place. It seems like a really great opportunity and I hope it works out well. The only sucky thing is that I'll be working weekends but hopefully at some point that will no longer be the case.

I think that pretty much sums up these last few months. If I've left anything out, I'll hopefully update this more regularly and fill it in. Till next time...

The pain sucks but the free time is nice

I have been sitting here for about 48 hours in and out of pain and sleep and in a wierd way it's actually kinda nice. I've gotten to play some Okami which I've been meaning to do for a few months now, I've read some OOTS and I've spent some quality time with Jadin, John and the newest addition to our family, Roxie. She adopted us last weekend (yes, she adopted us) and it's been an interesting week since. I've been working my butt off so I've only been able to spend a few minutes in the mornings and about a half hour in the evenings with her so I feel like I'm not establishing a good bond with her. On the other hand, John has been there for her so much. She was a little ill when we got her so he's been giving her medicine and checking on her regularly and just being a wonderful "dad". Another issue is Jadin. She can be so jealous at times so I need to focus a lot of attention on her so she doesn't think she's being replaced by the kitten. Being home has made it easier to spend time with both and I like it. Another nice thing is being here when we let Roxie out of her little room so she can play and get used to the place and Jadin. It's so much fun to watch them play. They will chase eachother around and when Jadin gets tired, Roxie will run by and smack her tail to try and get her to play more. It's just absolutely adorable! I guess I'll stop gushing about the cats now and take my pain meds and go back to sleep. I'll write again soon!

I might as well post again...

Since someone decided to point me out in their blog saying I've been on them to update I guess I should myself. Plus, I just got my wisdom teeth out yesterday so I have nothing but time on my hands right now.

First off, I'd like to tell all of you who've had their wisdom teeth pulled and been fine the next day that I envy you! I've had nothing but complications. My veins were too small so it took them 5 minutes to even get the iv in me so they could put me to sleep. Next, my mouth was too small so they stretched it out and I have 2 cracks on each side of my mouth (1 above and 1 below the corner of my mouth) and they hurt pretty bad. Then we find out that the dentist diagnosed it wrong. She said my wisdom teeth were only impacted with soft tissue (pretty much just my gums) which was not the case. They were all impacted by bone. The roots of the bottom ones were touching the nerve that controls feeling to my lips and tongue so for most of the day my tongue and bottom lip were numb because of them bothering that nerve. Here's the best part. My top 2 were growing at about a 45 degree angle but back towards my jaw and the root was too close to my back molars to be able to remove them from there so they had to stretch my mouth even farther open to remove them from the backside. After they let me go and give me an off work notice for a week we headed to the pharmacy. They tell me that they are a few days behind in filling prescriptions so it'll take quite a while and I started crying which I guess made them feel bad cause they started filling them right then. Once I got home I kept hurting myself when I'd try and put new gauze in or when I'd try and drink anything. Today I'm doing a little better but I'm still in a ton of pain cause I tried to talk too much yesterday so now I'm stuck sitting here with a ton on my mind and not able to tell anyone. Oh well I guess it's for the best. I'm gonna go now and try and get some sleep but you should expect some more posts from me over the next few days.

New Year, New Post

It's hard to imagine that this time last year I was overwhelmed with free time. I would be off work by like 2 most days and just go home to my roommate and watch Desperate Housewives and spend hours playing with my myspace page and ripping my hundreds of cds to my computer. I would go on a date every now and again but for the most part I just enjoyed spending time with friends. My place was always clean and my laundry was always done. Now days things are far from that. I don't get off work until after 6 and when I get home, I eat dinner, try to relax and then go to bed. I don't have the roommate anymore but I do have a wonderful boyfriend who I have a lot more fun with and if I beg and plead enough, he'll watch Desperate Housewives with me. I check my myspace once every 2 weeks and who knows when the last time was that I updated it. I've been trying to put all my music into playlists but that task started 6 months ago and hasn't been touched since. My days off are spent either scrubbing my place from top to bottom and trying to get most of my laundry accomplished (if only to have clothes for the week) or stressing about how I need to do all that. Don't get me wrong, I like the extra money from working so much but what I wouldn't give for more time to play Rock Band, Star Wars, Kingdom Hearts and move from easy to medium on Guitar Hero. Even more, I'd like to write on here more often, update my myspace more and finally get those playlists made. I'd also like enough time to work out and actually plan out my meals so I can start losing weight and being healthier. Maybe my goals are just to far out of reach. Maybe I should just take comfort in being in the arms of the one I love as often as I am and sleep well knowing my bills are getting paid and I have enough money to buy all those games, even if I don't get to play them.

Hmmm...

I know it's been a while since I've last posted. I've been using my myspace blog because I wanted certain people to read my entries and they don't know this blog exists.

Not too much new has been going on in my life. I was working a lot, went wine tasting for the first time, got a new car and spent a lot of time with John. Oh yea and the big one, got my ex fired from work.

Now, don't go thinking I'm just a horrible person who wants my ex miserable cause that it definitely not the case here! You see, we work together (well, I guess it's worked now) at a company owned by his brother. I had been with the company a year before he came along. In short, we started dating, we had a pretty rocky relationship that jeopardized my job many times and then 2 1/2 years later we were through. Well, him and I continued to be friends because it just seemed like the best thing to do since we had to see eachother all the time. Recently though, he'd been acting real strange. Rapid weight loss, I'd catch him drinking in his truck on lunch breaks and money started coming up missing from our satellite store when he'd be there alone. He admitted to me that he had taken the money cause he was having a rough time but he would put it back. Finally his brother came to me because he was noticing a change and I told him everything that I knew. I don't think he quite believed me. He would make excuses for why money was gone or why his brother smelled of alcohol during work. Well, one day I noticed a large amount of money missing and had to tell the boss. We did some research and everything pointed at my ex. When they questioned him, he admitted to it and was immediately terminated. I've been having a hard time with it too. To see someone I was once so close to be at such a low that he would steal from his own family is very hard. I've been working every day to just move on and get past this whole thing but it's hard. Lucky for me, John has been so amazing and it helps me see even more why I'm so glad I have him and my ex is long gone.

Soooo...

These past few weeks have been pretty hectic!

One of my friends from work had a heart attack and ended up having a triple bypass. He just got discharged today so I am very happy.

A close family friend ended up in the hospital and on life support. He is doing good now and if he isn't already, should be going home soon.

John moved to Colton. YAY!

I had an interview and it went pretty good. I have a trial run on Friday but more than likely I will be taking the job.

So that's what has been going on. I'll post more when things have calmed down a bit.

Took me a while again...

I know that I didn't update after last weekend but it has been an incredibly long week!

After working for Hell's Kitchen (actually Harlow's Kitchen Concepts) for over 4 years now I have decided to look for a new job. The combination of hardly getting over 30 hours a week and having to deal with Milly has started to drive me crazy. There's also the fact that they make me feel guilty for wanting to take a vacation because *gasp* the owner's wife might actually have to come in and work *gasp*. In short, I just need something more stable and with a company that treats me good and has room for advancement. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I find something soon.

As for my birthday, it was good. John came over the night before and made me open up the present he bought me. It was an accessory set for my Wii Sports game. There's a tennis racket, baseball bat and golf club that the Wii remote fits into. It is super cool!!! He also got me another present but I didn't get that one until Monday. He got me a pink tennis racket and pink tennis balls. I can't wait to play with any of my presents! On the day of my birthday, we sat around for most of the day and then went to dinner with my grandma. It was just a relaxing day for me.

Over this weekend, I got to spend time with John (as usual). We went and saw Pirates 3 on Friday. I was a bit disappointed. Like John said in his blog "there were too many subplots that just kept... going... on... forever. So much so that when something finally happened you were too bored with the movie to pay attention". I can only hope that if they make a 4th (which I'm thinking they will) that it'll actually be good because I don't know if I could handle yet another disappointment in this series.

In happier news, John will be moving down the street in a little less than 2 weeks. I'm very excited but at the same time I'm scared. I'm afraid that our relationship will change if we start seeing eachother on a daily basis. I just hope that if it does affect us, it doesn't affect us in a bad way.

That's about it for now but I'll try my hardest to update sooner. My goal for this month is at least 4 posts so we'll see if I suceed.

Updates

I thought I'd take a moment to update you all on my life. John is out of town (acutally on the other side of the U.S. for the night) so I have some time to kill.

First off, Vegas. That was one long weekend. It started off with me getting out of work at 6:00 Thursday night. We drove to Nuevo and had dinner, took showers and went to sleep. Woke up at about 2:30 am to drive down to Valley Center to hop in Krista's U-Haul and drive from there to Vegas. The three of us unloaded it all (well, I slacked off a little) and then went to run a few errands. That night we ordered pizza (the worst I've ever had) and then went to bed. When we awoke the next morning we discovered that there was no water so we couldn't take a shower before heading off to meet his grandmother and aunt for lunch. We walked down the strip and just hung out till it was time for Krista to pick us up and take us to the airport. I finally arrived at my place at 11:00 Saturday night where I showered, slept and then headed off to work. Overall, it was an ok time. I really like Krista and I hope we get to go see her again.

Last weekend was nothing spectacular. We just spent time alone at my place. We watched a few movies, played the Wii a little and just enjoyed spending time together.

Tuesday (June 12th) I became an aunt. My sister had a 7 lb, 12 oz, 19 inch long baby girl named Alise Renee. All I can say is that the baby looks just like her.

This weekend started off with a trip to the vet. Poor Jadin was so traumatized by the end of the visit. She had her temperature taken, q-tips shoved deep into her ear, 2 vaccination shots, 1 vaccine that goes up her nose, ear drops for ear mites and an antibiotic shot for her ear infection. I was also given antibiotics that I have to try and get her to take at home and some more ear drops so she's not very happy with me at the moment either.

After the vet, we went out looking at apartments for John. I'm keeping my fingers crossed because he really liked some apartments that are right down the street from my place and I hope I can have him this close to me.

Saturday I experienced something very new. I sat and watched him and a few friends play D&D (Dungeons & Dragons). It was definitely interesting. It looks kinda fun but I think it's a little too far out of my comfort zone for now. Maybe somewhere down the road, I'll join in but for now I'll stick to just watching.

That's about it for the last few weeks. I shall update again after this next weekend (my birthday).

Finally, a new post!

So I'm sure you all are thinking, "this is one boring girl." I post one blog and then don't post another for almost a month. Sorry for that. I've been so busy experiencing something that I haven't in a long time, being happy. I met this wonderful guy at the beginning of April and it seems every free moment I have is devoted to him whether it be on the phone, through AIM or in person. I have not felt this way in years. He has even started to bring out a side of me that I never knew existed, video game nerd. I actually went out and bought a Nintendo Wii and I have about 10 games for it. I find myself getting anxious about coming home at night to try and beat his high scores on there. Is that bad? Anyways, back to my happiness (try not to get nauseous here). I don't know what it is but even the simple things in life seem better when I'm with him. Making dinner together, eating chinese take-out, waking up at 7am on weekends, our inside jokes, all of those things that don't seem that significant in life bring a smile to my face. I still get butterflies when we kiss too! I wake up each morning thinking that it is a dream and that I'll wake up any second and he'll be gone but I look at my phone and there's my morning text and I see that it is a reality. I look forward to seeing where things go with us!

On a side note, I'm headed out to Vegas this weekend (with him, of course) and I can't wait! I don't expect to do my normal amount of partying while there but I'm still quite excited to be going. Details on that to come.

The Beginning

I used to have an opendiary account that I would write in every once in a while but I have now deleted it. After good conversations with Brian and much soul searching these past 6 months, I am starting over. I now have a wonderful boyfriend and a life that I can finally say I am happy with so what better way to continue on with my new life than with a new blog? I shall warn you now that this will not be a literary masterpiece but just me in my own, sometimes ditzy, words.